always.

Thursday, December 30

vain and 15

i was browsing through some old pictures where i found this. haha was pretty much loving my new pink sony cyber shot camera, a gift from my parents for my 15th birthday :)
compare how i looked 4 years ago and now? a lot yet not that much of a difference :S
my face probably matured over the years? chubbier, bigger, probably, maybe? haha wonder how i'll look like in 10years :)

x srya

Labels: birthdays, reminiscent

Tuesday, December 21

in the morning

okay so technically im home now, as in home home and i have absolutely nothing to do. how sad is that? :s i recall lastweek i couldnt wait to get home but now it seems that im ready to head back to kl :o ofcourse thats just the boredom talking. i've been getting a lot of sleep. well not entirely true but ive been sleeping nonetheless. my brains literally melting from all the slumber. this just cant be good for the mind body and soul. i dont like sleeping in :s i shud probly get people to wake me up in the morning. but im not exactly a morning person either. after 9am should be sufficient enough wouldnt it? hm now that i think about it, maybe i was being too harsh on aiman everytime he gave me the wakeup call. then again, he always called between the hours of 5 and 8 -_-" but being pissy was probably not a good way of saying thank you. er woops. ohwell :p
hmmm so plans on going island hopping has been sadly canceled due to weather conditions. boo. cant go up the mountains either. double boo. but thankfully for wednesday plans with the girls so i wont be too bored. swimming swimming :D oh i bought a book a few days ago. 'what i talk about when i talk about running' by haruki murakami. he is EPIC. one of my fav authors, period. mm other than that, i went jogging the other day (yes surprise, surprise) and yoga (shocking aint it?). i came to a conclusion that the adrenaline feels really good. exercising can be addictive..... only of you dont stop.

oh yeah. birthday passed so im officially 12 months away from turning 20. overall, it was a pretty pleasant birthday. probably with some traditions broken but its all good:)

x srya

Labels: birthdays, reminiscent, utter boredom

Thursday, December 9

slightly lost in between

SO! with all the drama thats been happening around me lately, im feeling kinda dazed and a little blur. havent heard of anything else in the past week so i assumed it's over for now but i guess its not? i mustve missed something there :s

anywho, exam week. been feeling awfully tired from the late nights and last minute revisions. music and advertisings over and done with, now im sitting here juggling between sociology and chemistry which is coming up tomorrow. im almost to a point of giving up. ALMOST. breathe breathe breathe. semester break starts right after i finish my paper. yay :)

to think a few more days till i can go back home as in HOME home :)

x srya

Labels: life, reminiscent

Tuesday, November 30

looking back

i honestly am trying to finish up on my music assignments before the due date if possible. dont think ill be able to cope with another last minute project though it does usually come out better than i hope.

so i was randomly going through my old blogposts a while ago, especially the ones i posted back in highschool. i couldnt help but laugh and feel slightly embarrassed by all the silly little things i wrote about. i couldnt believe it myself the amount of things i posted about. it does bring back some good memories but at the same time, i begin to wonder 'did i really write this?' haha. well no use regretting anything now. better to let bygones be bygones.

life works in funny ways, dont you think? i mean when you think you're the only person in the world with problems, you stop and think for a while and try looking at things in a completely different light from someone else's point of view. i've noticed my posts have been quite sad and emo lately but i'm starting to think that writing (or in this case, blogging) comes in handy when you have all these thoughts running through your head. good thing my blog circulation is pretty low. im still getting used to the fact that other people might read this. (yes, i know my blogs been up for a few years now and yes, i also know that i've rambled on about my personal life in the past but i dont anymore and im trying to understand why i ever did) which explains why my posts are usually filtered now.

x srya

Labels: life, love, reminiscent

Wednesday, November 24

jayesslee

all i hear is raindrops, falling on the rooftop.
oh baby tell me why'd you have to go,
cause this pain i feel it wont go away,
and today, im officially missing you.

i thought that from this heartache, i could escape,
but I fronted long enough to know
there ain't no way, and today,
im officially missing you.

ooh, can't nobody do it like you,
said every little thing you do,
hey baby said, stays on my mind,
and I, im officially..

all i do is lay around,
two years full of tears,
from looking at your face on the wall,
just a week ago, you were my baby,
now i dont even know you, dont know you at all,

and i wish you would call me right now,
so that i could get through to you somehow,
i guess its safe to say baby, its safe to say,
that i, im officially missing you.

ooh, can't nobody do it like you,
said every little thing you do,
hey baby said, stays on my mind,
and I, im officially..

well, i thought i could just get over you baby,
but its something that i just cant do,
from the way you would hold me,
to the sweet things you told me,
i just cant find a way to let go of you.

ooh, can't nobody do it like you,
said every little thing you do,
hey baby said, stays on my mind,
and I, im officially missing you,

all i hear is raindrops,
and im officially missing y o u.

x srya

Labels: breathe, club med, love, reminiscent

Saturday, November 20

tisbury lane

No one can know just how she feels
She won't use the phone, she's too tired to pick it up
She's going back to the old way
She sits in the classroom to learn with the others

so now im sitting here wondering if i can make sense of the world. trying not to get annoyed and trying not to think too much. don's playing the guitar while val's offering out chocolates. another night, another thing to think about in a few years.

x srya

Labels: mae, reminiscent, tisbury lane

Saturday, November 13

sometimes

i wonder what would've happened if we were still together. would we have broken up anyway due to irreconcilable differences? would we still be arguing everyday over the littlest things? or would we be stronger than ever? would we be able to celebrate our supposedly soon to be 4th year anniversary? funny how humans end up missing something so much when its out of their reach. sometimes i just cant help but wonder. i guess some things just don't have answers.

eventhough we're miles apart and eventhough things changed, you have and always will have a special place in my heart. i know you know it for a fact. i love you, applepie and thats one thing that wont change :)

Labels: love, reminiscent

Wednesday, November 3

regrets

lately i've noticed everyone needs someone to talk to and someone to listen to them. but to expect people to understand you, you have to learn to understand people. talking it out is always a good form of communication. how else would peace be declared?

dear you,

i know things haven't exactly been okay between us but i wanted you to know that im done being angry. im done thinking about the bitter things that happened between us and i dont wanna hate you. because at the end of the day, ill always end up remembering the good times we've shared, the times you've been there, the times you haven't, our rants and vents about relationships and friendships, our few sleepovers and even our sarcastic remarks on certain things. eventhough i haven't known you very long, you were one of my first friends in college. i thank you for welcoming me, for being in my life. i know i haven't been around much last semester. but please understand my intentions were not to hurt you. deep down you knew how hectic everything was in that sem for me. maybe it was my fault for spending the free time i had with other people and not you. you felt used that i only called you when i had no one else to hang out with? i called you cos i haven't seen you in a while and i genuinely wanted to spend time with you. you took it the wrong way though. you left and you didn't even talk to me about it. walking out like that wasn't the best option but i guess you just didn't want to confront the drama. i know you'll hate me no matter what i say cos i know how you are. the anger will always be there. you know you can forget but you cant forgive. we talked about it before. i dont think there's much to say anymore. i finally realized that no matter how much i miss us hanging out, im just hanging on to a clutter of ashes. so i hope the best for you. ill always be around if you need anything but im done being hurt, angry and disappointed. if you think you're the only person affected by this, think again. good luck in whatever you want.

love,
S

Labels: apologies, life, regrets, reminiscent

Sunday, August 8

one eight

its that time of the year again.

HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY NANA :)

holy cow i remembered the first time i met you during the bakat interact and now you're already in university! well there really isnt much to say anymore but know this,

don't be afraid to make mistakes in your life cause it'll help you grow into the person you truly are :)

hehe all corniness aside, take care baby girl. goodluck in everything you do :)

Labels: birthdays, reminiscent

Saturday, June 5

you know how you should never forget about the people who's made you who you really are today? firstly, if im not too late that is (though i dont think itd make a difference since my blog is pretty dead), i'd like to express my apologies to those i've hurt- im sorry if i wasnt there and im sorry if i havent been doing such a good job at keeping in touch. i guess i've been a little too comfortable here in kl so ive forgotten most of the things or all the amazing times i had with my friends. along with that, of course, thank you. for all the laughters we shared, for all the drama we've been through, for all the bullshit we've experienced, for the tears we cried. thank you for being my friends and thank you for always being there for me. you know who you are :)

ps. no worries. nothings happened. i just feel like i didnt do enough to deserve the people in my life :)

I miss those days when we used to talk about Disney and how life would be in 10 years. I'll be California and you'll be in London.

Labels: friends, love, reminiscent

Tuesday, May 25

so the past few weeks have been hectic. well, not really hectic but times been screwing around with my mind a little bit. sometimes it feels like the clocks ticking too fast, other times it feels its too slow to even comprehend. i'm not being mellow dramatic here i swear. my third semester started a little over a week ago. one more semester and it'll be my 2nd year in college <3

i've been thinking about this for a while now and i've concluded that i feel pretty blessed to know a lot of amazing people in my life. i'd list it down from the two 'cousins' in sunway to the many awesome people from college or even some people in edc/yawa but the list would be kinda long. haha i mean sure they aint perfect but what is perfection really? :)

anyway, enough with the sappyness. i need to do something outdoorsy soon or i'd die of boredom. golf, badminton, anything? luckily i have that youth10 thing this weekend to look forward to. then applepie in 2 weeks! <3

x srya

Labels: random, reminiscent

Tuesday, October 27

Are you desperate to find something more?
Before your life is over
Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With their big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside you're bleeding

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me

the song i related to most some years ago when all those teenage angst inside me was building up. the drama, the backstabbing, the lost of trust... shit like that i suppose. some people and some things (mainly writing and music) helped me through it.

sure i might go back to those feelings sometimes but a part of me is super glad that part of my life is done and dealt with.
and if it ever comes up again, i guess i'll know how to face it? :)

c'est la vi .

Labels: angst, reminiscent, simple plan, welcome to my life


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Thursday, December 30 vain and 15 i was browsing through some old pictures where i found this. haha was pretty much loving my new pink sony cyber shot camera, a gift from my parents for my 15th birthday :) compare how i looked 4 years ago and now? a lot yet not that much of a difference :S my face probably matured over the years? chubbier, bigger, probably, maybe? haha wonder how i'll look like in 10years :) x srya Labels: birthdays, reminiscent 21:47 · Tuesday, December 21 in the morning okay so technically im home now, as in home home and i have absolutely nothing to do. how sad is that? :s i recall lastweek i couldnt wait to get home but now it seems that im ready to head back to kl :o ofcourse thats just the boredom talking. i've been getting a lot of sleep. well not entirely true but ive been sleeping nonetheless. my brains literally melting from all the slumber. this just cant be good for the mind body and soul. i dont like sleeping in :s i shud probly get people to wake me up in the morning. but im not exactly a morning person either. after 9am should be sufficient enough wouldnt it? hm now that i think about it, maybe i was being too harsh on aiman everytime he gave me the wakeup call. then again, he always called between the hours of 5 and 8 -_-" but being pissy was probably not a good way of saying thank you. er woops. ohwell :p hmmm so plans on going island hopping has been sadly canceled due to weather conditions. boo. cant go up the mountains either. double boo. but thankfully for wednesday plans with the girls so i wont be too bored. swimming swimming :D oh i bought a book a few days ago. 'what i talk about when i talk about running' by haruki murakami. he is EPIC. one of my fav authors, period. mm other than that, i went jogging the other day (yes surprise, surprise) and yoga (shocking aint it?). i came to a conclusion that the adrenaline feels really good. exercising can be addictive..... only of you dont stop. oh yeah. birthday passed so im officially 12 months away from turning 20. overall, it was a pretty pleasant birthday. probably with some traditions broken but its all good:) x srya Labels: birthdays, reminiscent, utter boredom 00:40 · Thursday, December 9 slightly lost in between SO! with all the drama thats been happening around me lately, im feeling kinda dazed and a little blur. havent heard of anything else in the past week so i assumed it's over for now but i guess its not? i mustve missed something there :s anywho, exam week. been feeling awfully tired from the late nights and last minute revisions. music and advertisings over and done with, now im sitting here juggling between sociology and chemistry which is coming up tomorrow. im almost to a point of giving up. ALMOST. breathe breathe breathe. semester break starts right after i finish my paper. yay :) to think a few more days till i can go back home as in HOME home :) x srya Labels: life, reminiscent 03:18 · Tuesday, November 30 looking back i honestly am trying to finish up on my music assignments before the due date if possible. dont think ill be able to cope with another last minute project though it does usually come out better than i hope. so i was randomly going through my old blogposts a while ago, especially the ones i posted back in highschool. i couldnt help but laugh and feel slightly embarrassed by all the silly little things i wrote about. i couldnt believe it myself the amount of things i posted about. it does bring back some good memories but at the same time, i begin to wonder 'did i really write this?' haha. well no use regretting anything now. better to let bygones be bygones. life works in funny ways, dont you think? i mean when you think you're the only person in the world with problems, you stop and think for a while and try looking at things in a completely different light from someone else's point of view. i've noticed my posts have been quite sad and emo lately but i'm starting to think that writing (or in this case, blogging) comes in handy when you have all these thoughts running through your head. good thing my blog circulation is pretty low. im still getting used to the fact that other people might read this. (yes, i know my blogs been up for a few years now and yes, i also know that i've rambled on about my personal life in the past but i dont anymore and im trying to understand why i ever did) which explains why my posts are usually filtered now. x srya Labels: life, love, reminiscent 02:00 · Wednesday, November 24 jayesslee all i hear is raindrops, falling on the rooftop. oh baby tell me why'd you have to go, cause this pain i feel it wont go away, and today, im officially missing you. i thought that from this heartache, i could escape, but I fronted long enough to know there ain't no way, and today, im officially missing you. ooh, can't nobody do it like you, said every little thing you do, hey baby said, stays on my mind, and I, im officially.. all i do is lay around, two years full of tears, from looking at your face on the wall, just a week ago, you were my baby, now i dont even know you, dont know you at all, and i wish you would call me right now, so that i could get through to you somehow, i guess its safe to say baby, its safe to say, that i, im officially missing you. ooh, can't nobody do it like you, said every little thing you do, hey baby said, stays on my mind, and I, im officially.. well, i thought i could just get over you baby, but its something that i just cant do, from the way you would hold me, to the sweet things you told me, i just cant find a way to let go of you. ooh, can't nobody do it like you, said every little thing you do, hey baby said, stays on my mind, and I, im officially missing you, all i hear is raindrops, and im officially missing y o u. x srya Labels: breathe, club med, love, reminiscent 04:22 · Saturday, November 20 tisbury lane No one can know just how she feels She won't use the phone, she's too tired to pick it up She's going back to the old way She sits in the classroom to learn with the others so now im sitting here wondering if i can make sense of the world. trying not to get annoyed and trying not to think too much. don's playing the guitar while val's offering out chocolates. another night, another thing to think about in a few years. x srya Labels: mae, reminiscent, tisbury lane 03:17 · Saturday, November 13 sometimes i wonder what would've happened if we were still together. would we have broken up anyway due to irreconcilable differences? would we still be arguing everyday over the littlest things? or would we be stronger than ever? would we be able to celebrate our supposedly soon to be 4th year anniversary? funny how humans end up missing something so much when its out of their reach. sometimes i just cant help but wonder. i guess some things just don't have answers. eventhough we're miles apart and eventhough things changed, you have and always will have a special place in my heart. i know you know it for a fact. i love you, applepie and thats one thing that wont change :) Labels: love, reminiscent 00:48 · Wednesday, November 3 regrets lately i've noticed everyone needs someone to talk to and someone to listen to them. but to expect people to understand you, you have to learn to understand people. talking it out is always a good form of communication. how else would peace be declared? dear you, i know things haven't exactly been okay between us but i wanted you to know that im done being angry. im done thinking about the bitter things that happened between us and i dont wanna hate you. because at the end of the day, ill always end up remembering the good times we've shared, the times you've been there, the times you haven't, our rants and vents about relationships and friendships, our few sleepovers and even our sarcastic remarks on certain things. eventhough i haven't known you very long, you were one of my first friends in college. i thank you for welcoming me, for being in my life. i know i haven't been around much last semester. but please understand my intentions were not to hurt you. deep down you knew how hectic everything was in that sem for me. maybe it was my fault for spending the free time i had with other people and not you. you felt used that i only called you when i had no one else to hang out with? i called you cos i haven't seen you in a while and i genuinely wanted to spend time with you. you took it the wrong way though. you left and you didn't even talk to me about it. walking out like that wasn't the best option but i guess you just didn't want to confront the drama. i know you'll hate me no matter what i say cos i know how you are. the anger will always be there. you know you can forget but you cant forgive. we talked about it before. i dont think there's much to say anymore. i finally realized that no matter how much i miss us hanging out, im just hanging on to a clutter of ashes. so i hope the best for you. ill always be around if you need anything but im done being hurt, angry and disappointed. if you think you're the only person affected by this, think again. good luck in whatever you want. love, S Labels: apologies, life, regrets, reminiscent 21:40 · Sunday, August 8 one eight its that time of the year again. HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY NANA :) holy cow i remembered the first time i met you during the bakat interact and now you're already in university! well there really isnt much to say anymore but know this, don't be afraid to make mistakes in your life cause it'll help you grow into the person you truly are :) hehe all corniness aside, take care baby girl. goodluck in everything you do :) Labels: birthdays, reminiscent 11:40 · Saturday, June 5 you know how you should never forget about the people who's made you who you really are today? firstly, if im not too late that is (though i dont think itd make a difference since my blog is pretty dead), i'd like to express my apologies to those i've hurt- im sorry if i wasnt there and im sorry if i havent been doing such a good job at keeping in touch. i guess i've been a little too comfortable here in kl so ive forgotten most of the things or all the amazing times i had with my friends. along with that, of course, thank you. for all the laughters we shared, for all the drama we've been through, for all the bullshit we've experienced, for the tears we cried. thank you for being my friends and thank you for always being there for me. you know who you are :) ps. no worries. nothings happened. i just feel like i didnt do enough to deserve the people in my life :) I miss those days when we used to talk about Disney and how life would be in 10 years. I'll be California and you'll be in London. Labels: friends, love, reminiscent 00:54 · Tuesday, May 25 so the past few weeks have been hectic. well, not really hectic but times been screwing around with my mind a little bit. sometimes it feels like the clocks ticking too fast, other times it feels its too slow to even comprehend. i'm not being mellow dramatic here i swear. my third semester started a little over a week ago. one more semester and it'll be my 2nd year in college <3 i've been thinking about this for a while now and i've concluded that i feel pretty blessed to know a lot of amazing people in my life. i'd list it down from the two 'cousins' in sunway to the many awesome people from college or even some people in edc/yawa but the list would be kinda long. haha i mean sure they aint perfect but what is perfection really? :) anyway, enough with the sappyness. i need to do something outdoorsy soon or i'd die of boredom. golf, badminton, anything? luckily i have that youth10 thing this weekend to look forward to. then applepie in 2 weeks! <3 x srya Labels: random, reminiscent 15:14 · Tuesday, October 27 Are you desperate to find something more? Before your life is over Are you stuck inside a world you hate? Are you sick of everyone around? With their big fake smiles and stupid lies While deep inside you're bleeding No you don't know what it's like When nothing feels all right You don't know what it's like To be like me the song i related to most some years ago when all those teenage angst inside me was building up. the drama, the backstabbing, the lost of trust... shit like that i suppose. some people and some things (mainly writing and music) helped me through it. sure i might go back to those feelings sometimes but a part of me is super glad that part of my life is done and dealt with. and if it ever comes up again, i guess i'll know how to face it? :) c'est la vi . Labels: angst, reminiscent, simple plan, welcome to my life 17:49 ·